Well that was an unusual walk! 

So I was in the forest with my dog, it’s a route I walk quite often with her, I like to let her run free there because there’s no roads and there’s never any people around. I’ve never been worried about letting her run free because she always come when I call.

But when we were on our way home she ran over a hill and I suddenly couldn’t find her. I called and called, and after about 20 minutes I called some of my friends who live close by to ask them for help because she have never ever ran away like that before. One of my friends had just stepped out of the shower, but told me she would come as soon as possible, and the other one was just watching tv so she would come too. 

While I’m waiting for them to meet me, I’m looking for her again and calling and after some time I thought it would be a good idea to walk out of the bushes so my friends would be able to see where I was. And just as I’m rounding the corner of the track, I see my little dog come running down the hill with 2 fucking horses after her. I was so fucking confused and I’m also laughing hysterically because this little dog have been running around with these two horse for awhile now, because they’re following her around.,

So my friends arrive and I apologise to them and of course they’re like “wtf is going on” and me and one of my two friends went to the house nearby to tell them that their horses had broken free, and the owner just tells us that that’s normal and don’t worry they’ll come back? Wtf? 😂

I feel like Loki might have had a hand in this because I was talking about him and to hi. Just moments before this happened. Despite the very weird situation I am super gratful for the friends I have and I’m so happy that they’re willing to do such things for me. So I’ve had a very good day! 😊👍

is passing down songs normal? 

Some time ago I was singing a Easter song, my mom thaught us, at school. And apparently none of the other kids knew the song so I was very confused and tried looking it up on the web but I couldn’t find it so I asked my mom about why no one else knew the song. Apparently it’s a song which have been passed down for many generations in our family. I’d reallt like to find out how old that song is….

Hey I need your help!

My friend have this memory of a past life as another being. 
If any of you know anything about any of the following please do contact me! And don’t worry I got his permission to post this! 

– the creatures which he was one of had golden/ yellowish eyes. 

– he was in a big field which wasn’t really green, it was red-ish and looked infinite in extension. 

– the light of that world golden/ red, he couldn’t see a sun. That doesn’t mean there wasn’t one, just that he couldn’t see it! 

The memory he have is where he’s with some beings like himself, and then gets shot by a blue arrow. 

Does any of my followers know of a place like that?

is my psychiatrist a little bit too suggestive?

So yesterday I was at the psychiatrists and we had agreed that I should have 3 drawings I’ve made, with me to show her.

So I did.
One of them is of a girl with the earth in her eyes crying, which I drew a few years back when I was very very angry at humanity for destroying everything around us and I would talk a lot about how we’re basically rodents.
The other was a drawing with lots of different patterns on and text which says “just because I forgive you doesn’t mean I am stupid enough to trust you again” which I also made a few years back, right after my decision to cut my contact with my father, and my psychiatrist made it clear to me that I do not need to forgive him and people shouldn’t push me to forgive because It wouldn’t change anything, she also said that me being ok with what Happened is not the same as forgiving.
The 3rd drawing was a drawing of Loki I brought with me just to tell her about him, because he means a lot to me, but also because I was curious of her reaction, as she is very very Christian, and the room which we talk in is filled with crosses and Jesus illustrations.
I honestly don’t know if her reaction Was positive or negative, because she suggested that the reason his lips were sewn together in my drawing was because, I don’t feel like I can communicate (even after I told her that the reason I had chosen to do that was because of a myth) and even though I understood what she was saying, it kind of annoyed me that she kept using that picture as an example.
 “But he have his lips sewn together, isn’t that how you feel?”
I have never expressed to her that I feel that way at all, and I am a very very blunt person whom almost never care about what others thin about what I say.
She asked me “why Loki?” And I explained to her that he have been around long before I acknowledged his existence and about the astral travel where he was together with me. (And even though he may bring destruction, it is to make space for new beginnings)
She told me that such a thing was called a lucid dream. That annoyed me because she kept telling me that it was a dream, even after I told her that I’ve tried having lucid dreams, and that was not a lucid dream, and that there are people training this thing called astral projection, which I’ve also tried 2 times and am still training.
She didn’t stop calling it a dream, which apparently annoyed me more than I was aware of as I am in a pretty annoyed mood right now.
She also asked me “what kind of relationship do you have with Loki?” and I answered that, that is very very hard to explain, that it isn’t like any human relationship I have. He’s kind of my guardian, my best friend, my brother and also kind of like a boyfriend all at the same time.
She asked me if I am in love with Loki and I answered that I do not know but it’s kind of a yes and a no at the same time.
Then she started talking about if it was possible that I see Loki as a father figure, since I don’t see my own dad and my own dad have been very neglecting. She also suggested that “Loki may be filling a gap in your life”.
I don’t see Loki as a replacement for anyone at all and it does offend me a bit that she would think that. I do not doubt that Loki loves me and probably have been taking care of me when my dad wouldn’t but that doesn’t make him a replacement. My dad and Loki are nowhere near comparable.
“But Loki is a man”
I don’t understand what Loki being a man has to do with anything about him filling in a gap in my life. I know a lot of men. Honestly, gender doesn’t matter.
I also explained to her a bit about how I see the different gods and goddesses.
At the end of my time she said that “I need someone to talk with about this world I have inside my head” and she said”I would be happy to talk with you about these dreams” 
 
I feel that she is very suggesting and I don’t think that’s how psychiatrists usually work, is it?

your journey begins from day 1(with post this time)

So recently I’ve been thinking about when exactly I began my spiritual journey, when I first began practising witchcraft and when these things first started appearing in my life.
The answer surprised me: it have always been present in my life.,

When I was a young child I would talk to spirits, of course people would call them my fantasy friends but unlike my friends fantasy friends I obviously couldn’t control mine or  choose how they should be. I would see and hear them and feel their presence. I don’t remember the individuals because there were so many but I do remember one. There was this dark shadow man that would sometimes appear to me. I was terrified of him and along with him came visions of knives. I remember one time when my younger brother, sister and I were out ringing door bells, as kids do. and his face was suddenly right in front of me, he was yelling. And I panicked screamed and turned around. Obviously that confused my brother and sister.
I also used to draw a lot, and I still do. I drew “fantasy” creatures. Fusions of animals and gave them names. There’s countless of drawings of these different animals. I’m not sure about them though.
And I would be deep in my own thoughts a lot. Which we ways got complaints off by the teachers. Though I didn’t fall behind in school at all. I learned to read way faster than the other kids and loved it!

But at some point I became very very paranoid and afraid of everything. I would lie awake in bed and not sleep because when I did sleep I had horrible nightmares. I was so afraid? Especially of the darkness because I could see things in it. I’m still afraid of the dark and I sleep with the light on.
So I became even more obsessed with the occult than I was in the first place.
I was for some reason insanely afraid of vampires and hung crosses up all over my room because I’d heard that would help also onions. Yes I hung onions up in my room.
I honestly can’t even remember like the next few years from there.
The thing that made me feel better and still do was to imagine I had a white positive shield around me. And then I would imagine a huge ball of positive bright light moving to the middle of the room and exploding, taking everything negative with it. And then I’d imagine white walls. It helped a bit. But only a bit. As I’m writing this I’m growing more and more uncomfortable. And I’m getting headaches. It wasn’t all dark though. I also believed in faeries and would invite them into my room. I also believed in Peter Pan and would leave offerings for tinkerbell+ friends. And I was very close with nature. I would talk to the trees and sing with the wind. And i got really mad when people cut in the trees. I also apologised to the trees if I accidentally grabbed a leaf and hurt them. I collected a lot of stones and crystals too. (I still love crystals)
I’m trying to re establish that connection I had.
One time we were supposed to cut some of the trees for making a fire and i got really really mad and refused to do it.

When we moved to Greenland with my dads new girlfriend I was also surrounded by magick. I would wander off in my own, even though that’s really not safe to do where we lived. The nature there is so stunning I won’t even try to describe it. You’re forced to interact with it because it is so so strong and demand to be noticed. And the houses where we lived were not build as stabile as the ones in Denmark, so the whole house would shake with the wind and there would almost always be really cold there.
We also had a ghost in the house there. Greenland really is a place where people still believe in the old myths and the “old beliefs” . There were tupilaq’s for everything. Much like rune magick. This figure will bring your enemies harm. This figure will protect you and your loved ones from all harm. Stuff like that. Those figures are amazing too. The people who carved them would wear traditional clothing and would come to our door. We almost always bought something. I also had a friend there whom had a ghost in her house as well. One she was very very close with.
I really want to visit there again someday. Hopefully I will have more positive experiences next time with more positive people.

When I got into my teenage years some things unfortunately happened so I lost my connection with nature and the spirits. It slowly disappeared
Because of a hell of a lot negativity. But I never ever doubted the existence of spirits or clairvoyance. I kept reading books about it.

I’ve also grown up with Loki. Although I of course didn’t know that back then.
But I was always told stories about him, and the other gods trough my childhood. Some of the myths I don’t even remember who told me and when I asked my mom yesterday if she remembered when I was small and she would tell me Norse myths. She said she didn’t know anything about the Norse myths and that she therefore hadn’t told me anything. And she also told me that I’ve always been interested in Norse mythology. Which I really don’t remember. So I suspect that my beloved trickster had a hand in on that. I’ve already made a post about this but I don’t think I did a very good job on it.
When I was about 11 I astral projected out of my body, and turned in the TVs. A person was sitting by my feet, and they were very familiar although I just brushed it off back then I now know why that person was familiar. That was Loki.

In the past few months it seems spirits have begun trying to get my attention again. Things will sometimes move in the kitchen and there will be strange energies.
I should really learn to use a pendulum because I can’t effing help them. +that would probably also make my communication with Loki a lot easier. (I am also currently learning about the runes)

I’m sorry if there’s grammar mistakes, I really don’t want to go over this, cause I’m a lazy fuck XD